Ombak Atau Taufan Sebagai Dugaan ?
After quite a long time after the latest post, here i am updating my blog again...
honestly, things are quite tough these days. ohh by the way, i'm currently in semester break and supposed to prepare for my next semester which would be sem 6. tbh, don't know how can i be ready.
but, today, these days, my consent wasn't about that. it is actually a bigger thing that i consent about.
let me put it this way. it's something that i shouldn't tell anyone (supposed to be) cause it's like
"membuka pekung di dada". so let me just having perumpamaan je lah ye.. well i believe anyone who read this would definitely understand what will i talk about (yess i trust you guyyyss !)
what do u think about sharing of your loves one ? yes i believe there's someone out there who agree to share her or his love one but EXACTLY IT IS NOT ME.
i don't know whether what i think is right or not but i think someone that closed to me is having another affair.
but, i don't have any way that i can do to assure about this. i even googled and read a lot of posting about how to spy whatsapp but most of them are working on android and barely to find one that compatible with iphone. furthermore, i'm using iphone while the one that i want to spy is using android it'd quite difficult or close to impossible to do that. i even tried it guyss yes believe me ! i tried what they show to me. unfortunately, it wasn't working. AT ALL ughh
and tonight, the most important thing has happen..
i was performing Isya' prayer and ending my salah like normal routine i did by asking forgiveness to Allah swt followed by asking for my hopes in my du'a. i performed the prayer almost 1am just now. and because of my mind wasn't with my body, i spontaneously reciting 'Astaghfirullah hal azim allazi la ila hailla huwal hayyul qayyum waatu bu ilaik' for quite some times. i also cant recall how many times i recited. but after that, all my past sins keep floating on my mind and from there, i have a thought that maybe what i'm facing right now is because of my punishment of my past sins. and realising that thing, it makes me cry and cry a lot. sampai teresak-esak i nangis.. if i ever can go back to my past, i would never abandon of what my mom say, i will do as i supposed to do at my age, i would never ever try to fast forward my life kononnya dah grown up and what not. but sad to be truth, it will never happen.
one of my prayers is i hope that me and that person will only be separated by sakaratul maut. only death that can come between us. i know its sounds tricky or cliche but i do serious when i asked for that from Allah swt.
but thinking of that, i start to realise, i never prepare well as a muslim, for the next day. have u ever thought, what if today is the last day of our life ? what if in next 5 minutes we will die ? how would u spend the rest of the time that you have before you lose the ticking clock ?
noo. i never plan for that. i ever thought about that but i never prepare.
the clock showing 2.40am now, i guess i should stop by here cause i might terbabas waktu subuh pulak. but to conclude this post, i believe all of us being tested in our daily life. it can be as small as someone accidentally poured the coffee on your shirt, or as big as losing someone you love in just a blink of the eye. it can be anything and anytime. but my advice is, keep calm. always remember to your religions, always ask forgiveness from our God for our past sins and the most important thing, dont focus on the problem. instead, focus on how to solve.
i know, giving advice wasn't easy as someone who holding it. but believe me people, i also having big problems now and i'm trying so haard to remain calm. to think forward. to not make ridiculous mistake...
may Allah swt ease our life amiinn..
honestly, things are quite tough these days. ohh by the way, i'm currently in semester break and supposed to prepare for my next semester which would be sem 6. tbh, don't know how can i be ready.
but, today, these days, my consent wasn't about that. it is actually a bigger thing that i consent about.
let me put it this way. it's something that i shouldn't tell anyone (supposed to be) cause it's like
"membuka pekung di dada". so let me just having perumpamaan je lah ye.. well i believe anyone who read this would definitely understand what will i talk about (yess i trust you guyyyss !)
what do u think about sharing of your loves one ? yes i believe there's someone out there who agree to share her or his love one but EXACTLY IT IS NOT ME.
i don't know whether what i think is right or not but i think someone that closed to me is having another affair.
but, i don't have any way that i can do to assure about this. i even googled and read a lot of posting about how to spy whatsapp but most of them are working on android and barely to find one that compatible with iphone. furthermore, i'm using iphone while the one that i want to spy is using android it'd quite difficult or close to impossible to do that. i even tried it guyss yes believe me ! i tried what they show to me. unfortunately, it wasn't working. AT ALL ughh
and tonight, the most important thing has happen..
i was performing Isya' prayer and ending my salah like normal routine i did by asking forgiveness to Allah swt followed by asking for my hopes in my du'a. i performed the prayer almost 1am just now. and because of my mind wasn't with my body, i spontaneously reciting 'Astaghfirullah hal azim allazi la ila hailla huwal hayyul qayyum waatu bu ilaik' for quite some times. i also cant recall how many times i recited. but after that, all my past sins keep floating on my mind and from there, i have a thought that maybe what i'm facing right now is because of my punishment of my past sins. and realising that thing, it makes me cry and cry a lot. sampai teresak-esak i nangis.. if i ever can go back to my past, i would never abandon of what my mom say, i will do as i supposed to do at my age, i would never ever try to fast forward my life kononnya dah grown up and what not. but sad to be truth, it will never happen.
one of my prayers is i hope that me and that person will only be separated by sakaratul maut. only death that can come between us. i know its sounds tricky or cliche but i do serious when i asked for that from Allah swt.
but thinking of that, i start to realise, i never prepare well as a muslim, for the next day. have u ever thought, what if today is the last day of our life ? what if in next 5 minutes we will die ? how would u spend the rest of the time that you have before you lose the ticking clock ?
noo. i never plan for that. i ever thought about that but i never prepare.
the clock showing 2.40am now, i guess i should stop by here cause i might terbabas waktu subuh pulak. but to conclude this post, i believe all of us being tested in our daily life. it can be as small as someone accidentally poured the coffee on your shirt, or as big as losing someone you love in just a blink of the eye. it can be anything and anytime. but my advice is, keep calm. always remember to your religions, always ask forgiveness from our God for our past sins and the most important thing, dont focus on the problem. instead, focus on how to solve.
i know, giving advice wasn't easy as someone who holding it. but believe me people, i also having big problems now and i'm trying so haard to remain calm. to think forward. to not make ridiculous mistake...
may Allah swt ease our life amiinn..
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